Barely alive

Assalamualaikum and hi guys. After he left without saying anything, I just feel like crumbling down. Yes, I tried to let things go, I tried to move on, but I certainly can't. And even now, my guards are way higher than before. I just think that everybody talks to me with an intention. Everybody will take me for granted. Why do I have to have feelings? Why do I always fall for someone that will never see me? Why do I always get hurt? Why can't I just have a loving boyfriend like everybody else? Ya Allah, please help me. Soothe my feelings from all this nonsense. Ya Allah, I just want someone that I can talk to everytime I want.