I agree, I messed up, BIG TIME. So, I made this entry just for him. The one and only my Ahmad Khairul Amirin b. Khairi. 

Towards my dearest biy, I can''t deny it. I love you. Only you. I'm sorry for being a jerk. I can't live my days without you, I truly can't. You have lighten up my days from the beginning of the year and since then, my love towards you have grow deeper and deeper. I know what I did was foolish, if I could take it all back, I'd do so. I truly didn't mean to hurt you in any way. I'm so sorry. Just forgive me, would you?