Screw this shit

Reading my old entries really made me thinking, 'am I fully over him?' I think I'm not. I do have feelings for him. But it's like the God doesn't want us to be together. When I'm single, he has a girlfriend and when he's single, I have a boyfriend. And now we're both single but he changed. He is different now. He is not the same person who said, 'Kalau kita ada jodoh, kita akan tetap bersama.' He's keeping a distant. I don't know why. I'm tired of the games. I'm tired of everything. I just want to be happy. Is it really hard to get? Is it really hard to achieve?