I know how it feels

28th January.

So hi. This post is specially dedicated to the girls out there who doesn't feel confident about the way they present themselves. Who doesn't feel confident about their skin. Who thinks that they are not good enough. Well, I do feel that kind of way, most of the time. It brings me down, sometimes to a suicidal level. I know how it feels to cry at night wondering what did you do to deserve all of this nonsense. And started thinking that you are better off dead and feel guilty about thinking that because it's a sinful thing to think and you know there are a lot of people who are wishing to live. I know how it feels to fall in love with a guy but need to forget about actually confronting him because you know he will never like someone like you. I know how it feels to get all the negative vibes from the people around you even though that's the first time you ever saw them. I know how it feels. I know how it feels to be checking your phone every five minutes waiting for that someone to call or text and end up disappointing. I know how it feels to think that that special someone will never think of you in a special kind of way. I know how it feels to disappoint your parents even though you've tried your best doing exactly to make them proud. I know how it feels to feel like you're never going to be anyone's first choice. I know how it feels to think you would be better off dead.

Lessons that I get that makes me hold on to this day;

"Hey girls, you are beautiful. Don't look at those stupid magazines with stick-like models. Eat healthy and exercise. That's all. Don't let anyone tell you you're not good enough. You are good enough. You are too good. Love your family with all your heart and listen to it. You are gorgeous. Whether you are size 4 or 14. It doesn't matter what you look like on the outside, as long as you're a good person, as long as you respect others. I know it's been told hundred of times before, but it's true. Hey girls, you are beautiful." - Gerard Way.